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I was deeply saddened by a distant cousin of mine
whom passed away last 2 days.
The reason for his death was heatstroke and internal bleeding.
He was having his IPPT 2.4km rum when he collapsed.
Though i only met him during family occasions only,
you will always be remembered in everybody’s hearts for being the cheerful lad.
we are missing a piece of puzzle in the family members
but let us all prayed for him.
"May Allah blessed his soul".
My deepest condolence to his family members
(Al-Fatehah)Amin.

Today was my 2nd practical. First half-an-hour of the practical, my instructor made me to drive around kerbs and bends… I did it sooo badly he said, my speed judgement was no good. My speed was too fast for entering bends. In my heart I was like oh oh!!

I was like there is no way I have the chance to go for driving out on major roads. In my heart again I said, "Thanks Noris for screwing up. Now there is no way for you to drive outside the circuit." Hama Hama Hama… Then suddenly after 45 mins in the circuit. He asked me, do I have my PDL and i/c with me. At that point of time, I was l grinning from ear to ear. "Oh Boy, can drive out on main roads. Yippy!!" I tried to be calm and steady while answering him yes I did bring along both my PDL and i/c. What the heck, he told me to drive out from the circuit.

I almost said to him, Im not yet ready. But then again, I will hit my head on the wall if I say so. So I was driving on the main roads. Woah!! There are alot cars. Especially lorries and buses! Boy!! I am so happy to finally drive out from circuit.

Towards a junction, there was a hazard ahead on the left lane. I signalled to the right lane. After i passed that hazard on my left, my instructor told me to keep to my left lane. Indeed so, I signalled to my left, then this apek who drived a mini van, by-passed me and wont let me have a chance to keep on my left lane. Inconsiderate!! Im only a learning driver.. mind you!! My instructor was telling me, my reaction was so slow. Haizz, kena lagi.. I cant help it but only to keep saying "Yes sir" Aiyoh yoh.. He told me again, if during TP, failed to keep back on left lane after 8 sec will have 8 demerit points. I just cant help it but said "Yes Sir"

After all, it end quite well for me. Indeed I was so happy and grateful. After we reached the centre. My instructor asked whether I passed my FTT? I said I have passed all theories. Then he said, I can now book for my Traffic Police Test in an hour time. Wait wait a minute! Book Tp? Aiya ya ya yai.. Isn’t it a little too soon. He said once I have cleared my theories and Stage 1 of practical lesson, I can book TP in advance. Hmmpf, I am comtemplating should I book or not. I am still not confident enough. I shall think over it thoroughly.

The previous entry was all about how upset I was with the environment at work. As for this entry, Allahamdullilah, I can blog about something happy for once.

There is nothing to feel great as some might feel, after all.. it’s nothing for some. But as for me, I’m getting close to what I’m going to achieve.. Insya’Allah. I passed my FTT. For only one attempt. So ashamed, I took twice for my BTT. To tell you the truth, I am the typical kiasu Singaporean.. I went for my practice 2-3 times a week before my FTT. In each practise I can manage to attempted 3-4 booklets. Each booklets has 50 qns. So by the end of the day, I would have attempted abt 200++ qns..

I got demoralised that every booklet I attempted, I will failed by at least having 8-10 mistakes wrong. Even for practise or the real FTT, can’t afford to make more than 5 mistakes. But nontheless, I learnt from every mistakes. I’ll jot down my mistakes after each practise. Today, I had my FTT at 3.15pm. Again, being the typical Singaporean, I booked 2 practise section before my FTT. I came at 1pm for my practise. Just hoping how well I can do for the real FTT. I called Ayah after my practise 20 mins before my FTT. I told him I still failed for my practise.. Then if FTT, sure to fail. Ayah told me to go for some more practise. I told Ayah.. only left with 20mins then must book beforehand for practise. Then last min, we went through over the phone what are the questions Im not sure. Credit goes to Ayah and Shahril. Ayah manage to discuss with me while he is working… Sayang Ayah!! Thanks to Shahril, whom I called late at night (before the test)to reassure myself abt some questions that I dont knw.

Ironic thing is, inside the Traffic Police Test centre, I was quite comfortable, a little nervous. I was quite confident with the ans I choose. By the end of the test, the computer screen with big box showed " NORISDA BINTE BOHARI….. PASSED.." Wah…. Im soo thankful.. syukur Allahamdullilah..Went out of the room, Im grinning frm ear to ear.. People might think Im lunatic. It is somehow a sense of accomplishment because.. I dont have to worry abt theories.. practical and TP..Yippy..

Some people are just born f**king bias. As much as I love my part-time job, I met people who has inspired me like Kak Lily, Kak Radina and Leticia.. The 3 who I felt so close to working with. They are the one who tell me their honest opinion towards certain issues. They were there when I need them the most. Kak Lily, if you are reading this, I miss working with you damn much.. You know of how the situation is for me right now.

I am only a part-timer and I was treated not worth and what a part-timer should be respected. Im sounding as if I’m losing my pride and dignity.. to tell you the truth, im getting almost there. Previously, I was taught some respect and seniors to show what is right and wrong. Now, I felt that the seniors are not worth to be respected at. They arent showing any good role models, why should I be the one who follow by the rules.. If the seniors arent showing, might as well I dont follow by the rules. I felt totally helpless upon this situation.

When I keep asking question regarding some promotions ie: when will the promotion ends.. i have a senior who always say I DONT KNOW!! C’mon.. you are the senior. You should have the mentality to know what is going on better than I do!! Im utterly disappointed. The seniors are taking things for granted. Taking MC for granted. Come as when they like. I have my in-charge who arent aware of the situation.. Aiyoh!!

Other than that, I requested for 2 weeks break. Im currently on my semestral break for 2 mths. Ive been working for the past 1mth like crazy. Such incident happen over the past few weeks. I cant take it anymore. I requested for 2 weeks break. For obvious reasons, fasting month is coming and I really need rest and play before new sem starts. Can tell my in-charge wasnt quite please with me.. I’ve been working my ass up.. Im the one who contributed the sales.. I actually checked through the system who has contributed most sales over the past 3 weeks.. My name appeared to be on top of the list.. With 13,000++ sales contributed by me!! She should be thankful. Has not been hitting target for past 3 mths ok!! And Im only a f**king part-timer. What has all the seniors do in the shop?? Doing unnecessary paperwork, doing make-up for free, staring at the mirrors 24/7 non-stop.. Everybody is not organised at all.. Say to say, my in-charge is the messiest person.. papers are lying all around. I cant stand mess!! Mess NOT EQUAL Me!!

Im looking forward for my 2 weeks off frm work. Moreover, fasting month is coming, hope it will bring me a sense of calmness and peace in me.

Today, Nur Rihanna was born on 14 Sept 2006. Kakak gave birth to her 1st newborn. I came to visit Kakak close to 11pm on 13 Sept. Soon after I reached KK, Kakak was transferred to the delivery room. Abang still have his funny moments. He can still crack jokes making kakak laugh while she is in labour pain.

I can tell that Abg was nervous upon having his 1st newborn. He kept asking me to go and accompany him smoke. I was like Abg.. u smoke way too much lar.. He tried acting calm and said that he is stress. I told him off, it’s Kakak who is giving birth not him. Can tell the situation is very tense for both Abg and Kakak. There was no one else waiting for Kakak to deliver her baby only me and Abg. Both Kakak and Abg family has went back much earlier. When Abg accompanied Kakak in the delivery room, I was waiting outside alone.

Upon waiting, I saw many young mummy. Some as early as my age. I did manage to think about what is the trend of the society. Some of the makciks were like looking at some young girls with big tummy. I would not think of myself to be in that situation for a prolong period of time.. Whenever I saw these people and reflecting back on me, Mummy’s advice would always play in my ear, " Kasi orang tua duit dulu, biar ibu ngan ayah dpt rasa nikmat kakak yang bekerja keras.. kalau nak kawin, kawin lar.." That is so true.. I just keep some views to myself..

It was 1am, Abg still havent come out. Ayah has called me. He fetched me up frm KK, save cab fare.. haha.. After quite sometimes, Abg came out. His face is so pale. He said, "Abg geli nak tengok jarum cucuk kat belakang Kakak.. Waterbag Kakak pecah.." Pity Abg.. I told him I got to go. Abg met up with Ayah and chit-chat for awhile.. It’s been a long time since I last met Abg and Kakak.. Now, Kakak was asking me to give her baby present.. Tak tahu malu..

Is it just me who is feeling in this game..??! Someone please tell me.. Well, sad to say, life is not fair at times.. Sometimes you tend to make a bad choice in life and second chances always come by, ensuring you make the best out of it the next time around.

I admitted, I did made a pretty bad choice in my life.. It plunges me down so much that I could hardly breathe. It takes your love ones, friends or people who cares about you to realise the mistakes you have made and not to repeat itself… EVER AGAIN!!

After months of feeling helpless, useless and crestfallen, someone came along.. I will never forget this text when that someone sent me," Im sure there is.. It could be infront of you w/o u realising it.. Waiting patiently for you to acknowledge.. Love is blind my dear… Sure it is.." I was clueless upon receiving this text.. I don’t have a clear direction of what the game is… Could you explain to me? Are you in the game as well???

Cheers!!

I have a fren, who is teaching tuition for primary sch kids.. Last night, she messaged to one of my fren asking for help. This was what she text, " Can anyone help to unsramble this word.. REUNPY.." And so, me and my other two galfrens were craking our brains to solve this. Like ppl say, two heads are better than one and thus the more heads, there are more brains and more brains, can think of more possibilities… we messaged to most of our frens asking for help too..

These are the words we came up with;

- unprey(this word never exist, but it sounds as a noun)

- peruny(it sounds nice but then again this word never existed)

- penury (what do u guys think of it?? It has a definition to it.. an act of severe poverty)

My oh my, what has happened to the education??!! Imagine a PRIMARY TWO kid has to deal with it.. I don’t remember when I was in P2 back then I don’t have to come up with such difficult vocab… If Singapore is aiming to provide the best education level, it does not mean to put in more work for these young kids. It will cause more stress to these young kids, they will grow into a zombie… Who wants their child to grow up as a zombie.. Hell no for me… Well, I shouldn’t think too much about it, I still have a decade to think about what is best for my child’s education.. Well till next time..

Cheers!!

This sucks ppl.. I finally manage to  post my 1st entry here after a very long time.. This sounds corny but i felt a sense of accomplishment… Haha.. Silly me.. To be frank, Im not a really keen blogger but I will post an entry as when I felt that there is something that trigers my mind.. Well, have to keep those thoughts coming.. Till then….

Cheers!!